ramblings

Hello all
I'm extremly exhausted, but nowadays even when im exhausted I cannot fall asleep. Overall I had a total shit weekend. Lets start with Friday night. I do not go out Friday night but instead rush to make sure I have everything planned out for my trip to London that I am taking the next day to get my surveys filled out. I get a call from my travel parter around 9 to remind me to try and go to sleep early and get rest so I will be awake for the next morning to catch the bus to London. soo all sounds good, right? NOOOOO Jump to Saturday morning.... I get downtown to catch the bus at 9:30 (30 minutes early) I wait around for a bit then I start to call so friend/ travel buddy/ male protection for the day, no answer.... little more time.....no answer..... a little more time..... oh just got up had really late night, very sick.....little more time......just took meds head feeling better be just a little longer......little more time ...... give me an hour to take a shower......little more time (now 1 in the afternoon).....still sick be there in another hour......2pm my turn to just say screw it to late to go to london markets have to cancel day you little fucker!!!! So my Saturday was ruined and no surveys got done. Saturday night to depressed to do anything so I stay in..... Sunday comes and I go to London with another guy (luckiily he was nice enough not to cancel) but sadly he is english and extremely shy so he just stands there all day and doesnt help me get any surveys done, and I end up getting 2 surveys done total. aughhhhhhhhh, anyways come back to Oxford all depressed take a 2 hour nap then get up at 9pm to go celebrate May Day, which is huge in Oxford. Bars stay open all night, everoney gets trashed, then in middl eof the night you go to Magdelen Bridge and jump into the river then at dawn Oxford Uni choir climbs the towers and sings and then all the pubs serve breakfast and then drinking resumes for the rest of the day (its a bank holiday here). There is no real reason for the holiday, I guess the brits just needed another reason to drink, as if they dont drink enough. Anyways all my friends from class were all too stressed to go out last night to celebrateb/c our assignments are all due this Friday so it was just me and another girl, so we went out for just a few hours and it was pissing down rain so we called it a night midnight, so nothing special, no jumping in river, no 6 ambreakfast, no choir singing. And besides I had to get up early to go to London again today with the guy who bailed on me on Saturday b/c he promised to go today instead, oh NO wait thats not right, because he CANCELED on me AGAIN late last night because he had to stay up and drink all night and jump in hte river like a dumbass. The f-ing asshole I hope he hit the bottom of the river. Augh, I hate him. What a dumbass, so rude, he didnt even apologize to me. What a total waste of my time. Such a pathetic little wanker. GRRRRRRRRRRRRr Anyways so I didnt go into London today either so still just 2 surveys done. But I did get all my essays done for my classes that are due on friday so thats good, and I did talk to Sneha my old african roommate when I lived in Canada my first year and I am going to meet up with her on THursday and hopefully she will get some survey filled out for me. I will be so sad if she doesnt. Hopefully she has lots of friends here. Less then two weeks before Toronto, so excited to go home and see Kevin everyday. I totally fucked up my life the last 2 months so hopefully this summer I can prove to him and myself that I'm not such a dumbass and work things out. Okay enough of my rambings. Night Night